-Blank Mind & Empty Heart - Mix Feelings

Many thoughts came in my mind and much feelings fills my heart at a time in the past but today all seems nothing in my mind nor my heart, because it seems unrealistic ..... the joyful memories, truthful memories were always temporary and short just like our life > In the poem, "Life Brief Candle" written by William Shakespeare quotes that life is just like a candle that burns until the end and may not have everlasting life, there will be an end for each and everything include sadness and happiness.

Me, today who finally strive to the best, the highest peak of the mountain and aims to reach the pinnacle success in life, seems to be very very "TIRED" and even sometimes want to shout for"STOP" to really have a great long rest but things may not be pleasant or may not going according to your plan once I shout for "STOP".... In my point of life, there would not be a chance for me to "Stop" unless I, myself would give up .....

That's why today I'm here exist to write this blog, just simply because of the word "Love" , I had sustained until today.... Everyone will tired, but today I want to ask you > "What type of "tired" are you? Physical tired ?, Emotional tired?, Mental tired?, Holistically tired?, Spiritually tired? or the most your Heart tired?

Today, neither you nor me may gives the best definition of these different types of tired but for sure you and me are able to know what category are you and me in as we are the one who experience and go through the tiredness , rite? So , today I would like to share with you my type of tiredness >>> which is none of the above. Why?

Because today my type of tired is so called "Joyful tired" >>> where my tired form by three factors >> perseverance, joy and peace..... Why I said so? Perseverance is combination of patient and endurance where if today I would like to have joy and peace, first I must have perseverance, so would it be tired? Yes,very tired... rite? I know it is not easy but I desire for it...... in other words, it simply means "Endurance Love" .... just as simple as that!

I am glad to have this kind of tiredness in my life where at least I knew my life would be "One Life, Live It To The Max" as a blessings to helps others by giving hope, happiness and encouragement. I indeed very happy to see others receive the same blessings as me and even more abundant because they are so called blessed too. As I am just grabbing the simple principle "Dont worry, Be happy", I just want to see everyone is happy and I will be happy... this is "TRUE FROM MY HEART".....

No matter what, always remember...... you are not alone here, I am here with you to go through .... even though, not much I can help, but trust me.... two is better than one to finish the race of our life......

HOPE EVERYONE WILL CONTINUE BE BOLD AND STRONG, STRIVE FOR THE BEST OF OUR LIFE AT THE SAME TIME HAVE JOY IN OUR HEART!

Happy Or Sad ? You Yourself Decide It ! - Mix Feelings

Sad Or Happy ?
Lost Or Found ?
Miserable Or Adventurous ?
Speechless Or Speakable ?
Tired Or Energetic ?
Joyful Or Moody ?
Funny Or Confuse ?

Do all of you familiar with all these so called "words" or "emotions" in your life? Sounds familiar rite? I am sure that each and everyone of us for sure had experience all of these emotions in our life during our ups and downs. . . . . All of these emotions would not be new anymore to all of you, indeed it maybe has been a part of your life, where we as a human who can't escape from our everyday life.

Do all of you agree with me?

Since we were created to this world by God with the human nature or characteristics whereby human beings were made to have different emotions or feelings to show response to different things, people and situations or even acts in order to know one another better. But, today I would like to post a question to all of you here >>>>>>>>>>

How do all of you perceive or see all these "EMOTIONS" as? Is it good or it is bad to you?
And today, if you have the choice, what would you choose? Would you choose to be a person that without emotions, then you would not encounter any emotion problems OR you would rather choose to be a person with emotions but suffer through emotion problems that you face OR you would choose to be a person with emotions, at the same time, try to overcome the emotion problems with perseverance and joy?

Actually, the answer is already in your heart and it is easy for all of you to decide. Here, I believe and for sure, each and everyone of us would definitely choose to be the third choice person where "with emotions at the same time, try to overcome the emotion problems with perseverance and joy" ...... Am I right? But the matter here today is " How many people would really can do it?" and "Are they really willing to do it?" ...

As day by day passes, I seems like watching a drama series, episode by episode where the things, people, acts and situations happen just in an twinkle of an eye and eventually all of the scenes just recall or rotate back in mind one by one . . . . . Each and every time when these scenes comes to my mind, all can be conclude with the word "EMOTIONS". E-M-O-T-I-O-N-S really makes a great impact into the life of us, it can be both positive and negative!

Previously, there are many things happens too fast, as I really can't capture each and every scene quickly, indeed sometimes I am in a confuse condition - no longer able to differentiate "what is true? " and "what is false?", "what is right?" and "what is wrong?" even "what is reality?" and "what is fantasy?"......

Each and everyday, I have been met with different kinds of people with different position, different behaviors, different preference, different attitude, different acts, different level, different ages, different background, different culture, different ages and so on, BUT there is a thing that there is "NO DIFFERENCE" which is each and everyone of them encounter "PROBLEMS" ............. YES, it can't be denied that "Problems cant be avoided in our life" But the matter here is not the existence of the problems, yet we already know problems will exist each and everyday and thus we have to prepare for it BUT the matter is "each and evreyone of us face problems in dealing with our so called "P-R-O-B-L-E-M-S".......Why?

The answer is very easy - all begins with your "E-M-O-T-I-O-N-S".........

"Happiness is not happening. Happiness is a state of mind. You today can have everything in the world and yet still be miserable. Or you can have relatively little and feel unbounded joy."

"How I wish I'm a handsome guy?", "How I wish I can have my dream girlfriend at my side?", "Why don't I have more than 24 hours a day? I need more time!", "Why can't I own a nicer car, house just like theirs?!", I need more money! I want to be rich!, "Why can't I have the intelligence like them?", ......... Sounds familiar? Yes, these lines are what we like to grumble in our life, yet there will be always "why & how" in our life questioning for the things that we lack but have you ever seriously think about the things that we had before? No, right!

Well, let's think twice! After you became the richest man on earth and then what happens next? What if you enjoyed what you have for some time? then , you will soon feel fed-up with what you already have and go back to being unhappy and beg for more.

Who is the richest? The one who appreciates what he has now.

As this, each and everything will be added and given to you, once you learn to thankful and appreciate for what you have now.....that's why the morning prayer will always begin with a thanksgiving prayer for all blessings that God bless us now.......

Thank God for a beautiful morning
Thank God for blessing me
Thank God for my wonderful life
Thank God for the people around me, that they can shower their love upon me
Thank God for protection over me, my family and friends
Thank God for everything you've done in my life

Let me tell you a story >>>>>

One day, there was a little boy aged 12. He indeed came from a broken family where both his parents were divorce since he was in the age of 2..... and because of his both parents "one decision" had indeed broken his happiness and dream to own a warmth and lovely family...... Due to this reason, he was supposedly to be sad, despair, unforgiving and even having hatred towards his life and both his parents ...... but oppositely, this little boy as he was growing elder and mature, he no longer hold on the things or the past or focus on what he do not have , eventually, he now always thankful for what he had and now God even bless him abundantly.......

So, what do you understand from this story ?

In these few weeks, I was remained busy occupied myself with load of assignments, workload and many others things, yet still I was thinking about how miserable my life would be when I can't overcome all the problems that happens in my life? Just as I was preoccupied with my thoughts, suddenly a scene in came in my mind was a blind lady sitting on a chair, sewing something with all her might. Although she was prickled by needle every few minutes as she was sewing, she didn't seem to give up. After that, I saw this lady again with a hand-sewn muffler.

I comprehended something very important here. I realized that being depressed wont help me to overcome my problems. So, why was I still wasting my life living in despair? So, I decided right then to do something meaningful with what I have now rather than blaming God for what I do not have or what I cant do........It was a waste of energy to focus on what you're missing or lacking and that the key to happiness is to take pleasure for what you have now. Sounds simple, doesn't it? So, why they are many people still unhappy?

"No one can go back and make a brand new start But anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending, God didn't promise days without pains, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the day. Happiness actually is a state of mind, try to appreciate what you have and all problems becomes not important.

Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on! When you feel down because didn;t get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking something better to give you. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it is means first. There's always a "PURPOSE" to the things that happens in life, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

Here comes the "Golden Rules" to achieve Happiness in Life:

• once you know the tool for being happy, then it will work easily

• if you become content and satisfied with what you have, you will lose your motivation to achieve more

• happiness is optional, if you want to choose to be depressed, that's your own choice, but always remember you have the choice to choose to be happy
  

Finally, I hope everyone please be happy and don't worry, focus on what you have now......... they are now the most precious you have and don't wait until it lost, only you appreciate >>>>>> "Free your heart of hatred, Free your mind from worries, Live simply, Give more and Expect less"

-Rainy Day- Mixture Feelings

Today, 24th July 2009, (Friday), 8.05am, it was a rainy and cloudy day, I seems not willing to wake up for lecture class at 8am, it was very early and it sneaked my wonderful sleeping mode with what a wonderful weather...... Haiz!!!!!

But at last, I finally woke up as usual, force and dragged my heavy feet for lecture class..... during my way to uni, when I was in the car, I had capture lots of rainy photos and together accompany by song entitled "Cai Hong", by JAY CHOU...
Wow, suddenly, there comes a feeling of sadness and mixture feelings, why can't I found rainbow after cold rainy day....

"RAINBOW represents HOPE & RAIN represents CHALLENGES".......

I started to question, "Is my life also the same??? No Hope After My Challenges?????
I can't even answer it sometimes, because I am doubting.....but that is not the right thing, I should think about.......

Haiz..... "Suan Liao Ba">>>>>>>

Always keep remind myself, everyday there are problems and worries, just forget about it.... Leave it to GOD!!!!! Let Him to decide for us, as me will carry on the principle "DON'T WORRY, BE HAPPY"............

Come, let's see see look look, what happens in my life today????

>>>>>> Enjoy lol >>>>>>


"Come..come ..come....PC Fair In UTAR ar..... "Cheap, Variety and Affordable ar...!!!! hehe... here is Pasar Computer FAIR.... can bargain price de, how much??? can cheaper ar???? can la!!!!






Our DDK1 Lecture Hall, the most and the only one of all lecture halls that so high class decorated.... because of Mind Festival Event!!

Wei, I want to sign attendance...give me, give me...... dun misunderstand ..this is not me!!! everyone after the class, busy and rushing finding attendance lists to sign, so now this is the condition of snatching attendance list for signature....
Hahaha........




"wahaha..... attendance time!!!! She always take half an hour to check our attendance by randomly read out 30 to 40 people names....., and many students seems to help friends by pretending their friends who do not attend.....Hahahaha........




Early morning, we have lecture class at 8am, and furthermore, it is raining.... everyone seems force to dragged their feet to come because of attendance.... and some may even late for class.....
Actually, everyone knows that this lecturer teaching method is "LOUSY" >>>> just read words by words in slides to us..... and she was "Bravo", she able to finish 15 pages which consists of about 90 slides in 45 mins....Geng ler!!!!!






"I love Rain, But....."Raining with storms and thunders will not ever be my choice", it is the challenges, circumstances and unhappy memories to me to overcome....
"There is no more "warm" in the coldness, no more "secure" in the coldness, BUT...full of insecure, discouragement, disappointment, lonely and sadness......


"looks familiar??? hehe... UTAR ROAD >>>> when rains fall, the road seems to be wet and dangerous, BUT ... for me it is "Cool and Refreshing">>>>> once again, freeze all my happiness, i will recall my joyful memories during raining.....inner warmness comes in sweet memories!!!!


"Although raining seems is an unpleasant weather to most people, but for me, when the rains fall, it gives me comfort and peace..... the sound of rain falls "tic tac..tic tac....tic tac..>>>>> just like the volume or music of my life!!!




Early morning, raining seems to be cold and secure,as it gives a sense of unwilling to wake up from this what we called "Paradise Sleep".... with a thick blanket cover over and the warm in the cold rain that gives a secure and comfort >>>>> can this secure last "Forever"????



"Cloudy and raining, so blank and haze... sometimes, my life goes like that" >>>> nothing and confuse....

-Memories Recall - Moody In A Silent Mode

"Ricky, I wan to play.... "


Haha..... very funny!!! we go for a childhood "Put Put Car" for a photo snap.... to recall back our childhood memories......wow, very innocent when childhood time!!!! So Good........



Actually, both of us that day, after picnic waterfall, we went for dinner with Johnny and Wei Jie, after that, I grabbed Ricky with me together to go for "Lepak"... cos me unwillingly to back home so early...........
then, we go Tesco and lastly, we go this what we called "Big A Cafeteria"......


"Ricky, quick see the menu and decide want drink wat?? says Calvin
"Actually, I have no idea what to drink, cos Calvin, you see the "PRICE", very difficult to decide.......haiz, says Ricky...




Wahh... actually the "PRICE ALSO VERY CHEAP WORR..... (in a critique tone)....
Come and discover yourself ba....Hehe..........





WoW.... New place..surely many people will come for the first try.....
BUT...don't know ...after this, still got people come a not????



"Big A Cafeteria... just newly open in Kampar for few days...

Decorations is standard and class, just seems like very "PROFESSIONAL"........